Muhasabah diri sebelum tidur....masih diambang sedih~

I know I should:

1. Never take it seriously
2. Dare to fail
3. Stand up again when I fell down
4. Be grateful
5. Never regret the past
6. Cherish the moment
7. Never be sad too often
8. Never easily cry T_T
9. Focus
10. Put aside things that doesn't really benefit me
11. Never give up

Apart from everything...I don't want to think about the fact that I almost get the things that I ever wanted to accomplish in life but I just couldn't....It sadden me for I've always missed everything in life....

When can I find my PURE happiness????

"At least I'm standing up here, you're sitting down there"

So, I haven't really been updating my blog these few days...The last time I post new entry was on 15th January which is like more than 10 days ago =.="

Here's the thing:

I was running for the Student Representative Council (SRC) or known as Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar (MPP). 

Big stuff huh? cuz it involve campaign and stuff...lobbying and all that...Only God knows how I felt those few days before the election and even before the 'Rapat Umum".

We were being quarantine at Beringgis Beach Resort in Papar...not bad though...although I do have some things to propose to the resort:

1. perhaps provide some complimentary cookie as well in the room....I wanna munch something.
2. Provide face towel Please~
3. Fix the water heater...I was using the water heater to the max in the morning but I still feel very cold because it's not working!
4. Wireless in the lobby only? hurm~ I wonder what others have to say about that
5. The air-conditioning in the seminar room is not working...It was freakin' hot! Fix it please!

Ok...that was about it....overall I'm satisfy...as what I always expected for a resort :)

Ok, talk about the "Seminar Pemantapan Calon JPP 2010/2011...

Too bad I didn't make it as the MPP this time...and sadly to announce that this is my first and last time I ever try out for MPP as this year might be my final year in the campus as I am going for my Industrial Training early next year....Time passes by slowly eh?~

Anyway...the reason that I trying out for this MPP thingy is mostly because:

"This is part of my to-do list in my life"

The other reason...well, let it remain within me and my calon MPP friends :)

Too bad...I didn't make it through...it was a tough competition...It was me against other program i.e: Diploma in Banking, Diploma in Business Study, and Bachelor Degree Economics candidates. This time around, we were going with the system whereby candidates of the same faculty will have to go against each other...it was tough....out of 10 candidates from my faculty, there's only 2 seats available in the council for my faculty...

It was heart breaker that I didn't make it...but...I know...there's blessing in disguise...maybe it's not my time yet....for my time will come someday in the future~ 

"If it was not destined to me now, it doesn't mean that I'm not gonna get it forever...I WILL MAKE IT! :)"

So, that was it...I may not make it as the Student Representative Council...but hey:

1.  I still hold the position of a Peers Mentors~ and I got paid for that :P 
2. I still held the position as the President of English Debate Club (ECHOES Club) and we can go anywhere for debate tourney~
3. Welfare officer for BBA (Marketing) Club
4. Treasury for Mandarin's Nite Dinner

So, What more can I say...I am in the training ground to become a better leader in the future...May Allah lead me to the right way and may I always be blessed...Amin~

MissAwesome Signing OFF!~

P/s: Back to the normal student life with value-added as a debater~ :D

Rainy day Post (Ouh~ I think too much that day!!)

It has been raining the whole day today...=.=

But before that...here's a thought that I would like to share~
The other day, I was driving all the way from the campus to KK...need to buy something. So, since I'm in the center of the city, I decided to check the mailbox at the post office. The day was raining *as usually these days...and it can turn heavily anytime soon* While driving...I swear, I think my speed was only about 70km/h when I was usually driving almost 90km/h on that Sulaman Road...even if there's any car infront of me, I would just take over and leave that slow moving bastards....but that day...I was driving really slow...It was because I was thinking TOO MUCH!!! There's a lot of thought in my mind. All came in at the same time and I swear, I was ACTIVELY THINKING that for one moment, I forgot where am I actually heading to~ >_<
Then, it came into my realization...upon the fact that I've been thinking for sometime, which is:

"I seriously feel like I need a driver who can drive me around while I can do my work even in the car...I seriously feel like I need to have a personal assistant to help me arrange the schedule and stuff...OMG~ I am so like a bee!"

Yah...call me whatever...a freak or a geek...but I am doing my stuff right on track. I HAD TOO! Yeah maybe I drove too slow that day, but hey...at least I survive :D

Ok, enough with that day...
Well today...It's raining...and still raining ever since the morning...Gosh! the whether is so cool that I could sleep all day long...*Thank God that my morning classes has been cancelled :D*...I only have that 4pm class...
The fact is, there is sun eclipse that's happening...and I was kinda excited that I promoted to my friend to view it at the campus...but CRAP! It has been raining ALL DAY long...there's not even enough sun to heat my skin! HUH!

You see, I am someone who actually prefer the sunny day although I don't like it...but I still prefer it *it is two different thing between liking it, and preferring it while at the same time not liking it*. I prefer sunny day because of:

1. Put it this way, I have tons of laundry I just take out from that washing machine...I need sunny day to dry it out
2. I can go anywhere I want without feeling the rain tickling on my head and had to rush into the bathroom and shower as soon as I get home because I don't want to get ill >_<
3. I drive better during sunny day because I can see clearly...compare to rainy day, it's a lot of obstacle!
4. If it's a cool sunny day, I don't have to use umbrella to go here and there....but if it's rainy day; be it heavy or not, I have to use umbrella all the time to avoid my clothes getting wet! >_<
5. Rainy day makes me sleepy and makes me don't want to go to class and just wanna sleep and dream and sleep and dream~

You see...If it's resting time...I do prefer rainy day...it puts me to sleep even better...I don't say that I hate rainy day...for me, rainy day is a blessing...but I do hope that rainy day only happen occasionally so that it's easier for me to do my stuff without feeling the constraint in movement :D

Until then, have a sweet weekend...and enjoy the rainy day~ ^_^

MissAwesome signing OFF!~

P.S: My neck is killing me!!! >_<

I finally change my caller ringtone POST~

Yo peeps!

Check this out!

I finally change my caller ringtone from the song which i purchase 1 year ago to something new...

Last year, i start to purchase Secondhand Serenade - Your Call as my 1st ever caller ringtone...using it ever since until today...and now, i've deleted it due to the fact that it's time to move on and get over the stupid retarded perception that i used to have upon the 1st ex => history bebeh~

then i started to purchase the top charts package...kinda squeezing my credit every month due to the fact that it need to be renewed *duh~ top charts keeps on changing...that's why it is called top chart at the very 1st place*...I had some of awesome tune back then such as All-American Rejects...ETC...but, i kinda not keen into the top charts song these days....so i delete it and change to the 2 most current songs that i really adore which is:

Adam Lambert - Whataya Want from me

Kris Allen - Live like you're dying

i actually have a list of song...i wanted to purchase 3 including Boys like Girls - Two is Better Than One...but due to credit limitation...i have to put it aside...beside, i want the song to remain something that i felt special just for me....ouhhh....I love that song...so sweeetttt~

ouh...and the song by Orianthi...I LOVE IT!!!

and also by Owl City - Fireflies....deeply in love with it....

and by Wondergirls - Nobody *do i need to say more darling??? :P*

also the one by Saleem - Tinggal kenangan *kinda sad...but worth it*

last but not least...by Justin Bieber - One time *yeah...he sounds like a chick...but I LOVE THE SONG YO!!!~

Well, that's about the list of song that i fascinated the most for the time being

MissAwesome Signing OFF!~

I Hope to cover the last 3 weeks ago(I Think~) Post

My last post was about Great Serdang Debate (GSD). I was supposed to write a new entry in this blog regarding VC CUP 2009 which was held in UiTM Bandaraya Melaka which happen as soon as GSD was over. But the thing is...

1. I got so tired as soon as I get back home on the 15th December...Took me about 2-3 days to fully recharge my energy *I assume~*
2. My mind was kinda unable to generate new stuff and even to circulate the idea that I had that moment *maybe due to the fact that I spend the last 2 weeks since 4th December until 14th December thinking like Einstein*
3. At the same time...I was busy cleaning up my room *now tell me...how am I suppose to fully recharge my energy???*
4. Ouh...and I was preparing myself for any possibilities of what should expect for the Peers Mentors Course which starts on 19th December *which mark the end of my semester break*

Ok, a brief about VC Cup 2009:

1. It was great...met lots of new people and friends
2. It was worth it...the exchanging idea and stuff
3. It was an exposure...lots of thing yo!
4. It was AWESOME!...spending times with my debate family yo!
5. It was cam-whoring session all the time...Thanks to Alif and whoever have the camera~ check this album http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=176690&id=614480967&l=778c10eb97, and http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=176865&id=614480967&l=9f50a835a
6. What more I can say...no words to describe it...It was a great experience that I will always remember and I am so gonna tell this experience to my kin :P

*Check out the photos of VC CUP 2009 in my facebook profile~*

So, moving on...the next thing happen to me is the Peers Mentors Course which starts on 19th-24th. It was great...made new family which i rather call PEERS MENTORS FAMILY....All have been great...all have been cooperative, all have been friendly and all have been AWESOME!

*All have been great! Gonna miss you all and the moment we had*

Soon after the Peers Mentors...it's Xmas and on the 26th was my eldest sister's engagement day. It was all red...but I cannot really stay long that day since I had to rush back to the campus since MMS starts on 27th.

*The Sisters and the cousins~*

So, on 27th is the day where MMS start...FYI: it's like the orientation week for the newbie who just enter UiTM...

I got to be Exco Kesihatan...so during the whole 1 week of MMS, ppl usually see me with 1st aid kit everywhere...hoho~ but overall it was a great experience...learned a lot not just being part of Exco Kesihatan...but also by being the Peers Mentor...What a valuable experience..:) Ouh, we celebrate New Year at Bilik Urusetia~ :D

As soon as the MMS over...all of the PM went to watch 'OLD DOGS' at GSC 1Borneo...It was AWESOME!!! had a great laugh...Conquering 2 and a half row of seats...IT WAS LEGENDARY!!!

As you can see...my semester break end earlier...but it was worthwhile..I gained new experience, I made lotsa new friends and whatever happen the last 3 weeks is something that I truly hope going to help me in the future...:)

P.s: I hope it's not too late to wish all HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010...may the new year bring more good and pure happiness~ :)

MissAwesome Signing OFF!~

THE 5th GREAT SERDANG DEBATE (GSD) 2009 Post~

This very particular debate tourney has been postponed since last august due to many reason i.e: H1N1 and stuff like that. So obviously, we received the invite letter way back few months ago and I have been back and forth to HEP to deal with this thing so that we will be able to attend it and no last minute preparation.

But then, I was informed by this 1 officer from the our student’s affair division that we may not be able to attend this cause the officer with the higher power of deciding whether we can go or not seem hesitant and most likely not approving our interest attending this. So I was a bit disappointed with that and had to live with the fact and still carry on with the preparation of the other tourney right after GSD.

But a few days before we actually flew for GSD, then only I was informed by an officer from HEP regarding GSD. It has been approved and our flight ticket will be confirmed as soon as possible due to the time constraint and it is only a few days before the date that we actually need to fly for GSD.

anyway, skip that part...

We flew from KKIA at about 5.30pm on 3rd of December...our flight was suppose to be at 3.15pm. But then it was been cancelled and change to different flight and we only find out about it as we get to the airport...Damn!

But anyhow, we got free meal *the one for the delayed flight meal*

*Some of what we did during the delayed flight*

To spice up a little, we actually almost missed our flight!!! because the gate suddenly change without us being informed...but thankfully we didn't miss it because if we really do miss it, we surely have to fork-out our own money and pay extra to get on the next plane...

So, after the 2 hours and 40 minutes flight, finally we arrive in KLIA...claim our luggage and head off to the meeting point where Anthony's people (Convener for GSD) are waiting for us...we took some pictures and head off to UPM Serdang.

As soon as we arrive, we get our room, put our stuff in the room and head for dinner and stuff like that...nothing much that we did that nite...well, we were pretty tired as well...so, we kinda sleep early.

So the next day...we all went out after the registration and stuff...the rest stick to their shopping plan, while i went out to see my friend and watch Twilight Saga: New Moon at MidValley.

*some of the pic the day we all went out*

Then come to the day that the debate start...well...all ok...Azel and I were almost been rank as no.2 for each of the prelims round >_<

*Waiting for the next round*

*waiting for the next round - I know I'm cute :P*

And the next day~

*Walking to the bus*

*some of Indonesian friends ^_^*

And the final day...

*The Borneo people~*

Overall, GSD 2009 is great...I mean the meal is Awesome! SEDAP!!! the Hostel is Great *got wifi smpi ke katil aku lg...wheehuu~ The organizing committee especially our LO - Atikah, has been really friendly and helpful to all of us...Really gonna miss the moment that I had there...and I'm proud to say that I went to GSD 2009....*Seriously guys, u have great campus~*

Well...waiting for the next GSD 2010~

MissAwesome Signing OFF!~

Finally it's December and it's MY BIRTHDAY post!

Wheehuu~ Finally it's December...

I've mentioned before in my previous post regarding the fact that I love December and it's the month that I've been waiting for the whole year.

Here's the reason why I love December more than any other months:

1. My Birthday falls on 2nd December~ ^_^
2. It's a month full of magic *at least for me*
3. It's always been a month of holiday for me~
4. If I were in any geographical location with snow, right now it's suppose to be snowy and all white~
5. Though I don't celebrate Christmas, but hey~ I love the TV show during Christmas...It's just full of fairy-tale and I love it!
6. It's almost the end of the year, equals to GOOD BARGAINS IN STORE!!! It's YEAR END SALE!!!
7. Awesome people are born on this month...Eg: Me, Myself and I :D
8. Usually we (my family and I) will go somewhere and have our family vacation...a little barbecue perhaps :D
9. Things just happen during this month...I mean unexpected thing...I dunno what will happen this year...It's better be good 0.0
10. Maybe the no.10 is because I ran out of idea, but get this ::LINKIN PARK HAVE A SONG TITLED MY DECEMBER:: *what more can u say...kekeke~

 Ok, I did write my final words to the age of 22 on my status update in facebook....see the pic below:

Yep...I was 22 before...the fact that I always in favor of the number 2 makes me feel delighted welcoming this stage of age last year...and the fact that the number 2 comes in double makes me feel awesome...HAHAHA!! *Yeah yeah~*

I have my own reason why I like number 2...the reason is because, number 2 is the least number that you can get, but at least it is not the loneliest number compare to number 1 :D

Last year has been a real good start for a year which eventually makes me feel the way I feel...I had my 1st date with someone when my birthday was approaching (seriously, I never had a date with anyone before that...I'm a freak!) and later that month last year, I got my 1st bf (but then we broke up for a reason which is only at my best interest and not to any of you..so, it will remain unspoken in the public).

During my time of the age 22, I have to deal with shits...shits that makes me cry...for the 1st time, I did cried  when I had my 1st breakup and I was pretty much in a very bad condition..Thanks to my friend: Lina, Med, Ayu, Bubu, and Amir  who has been there for me that moment and giving me words of strength that there will be someone else out there for me which is way better than my 1st ex. These people have convince me that I'm better off without the other half and due from that, I manage to score 3 pointer for my 1st semester doing degree...Thank You yo! All of you will always be cherished and I really really love u guys...you guys are my awesome friends! :D

*My Awesome friends ^_^*

Whatever that may come up this coming year...I am determine to find the PURE HAPPINESS that I've always been searching for...

For this date, I vow to myself that:

1. I will always think positive
2. I will always smile
3. I will try as hard as I could to be HAPPY
4. I will always be the best that I could
5. I will put aside my anger and try to be accepting whatever may occur

To all my friends and family....I Love You all....

To those who ever did breaks my heart...I've forgiven you...as long as you respect the path that I am taking right now...

:)

MissAwesome Signing OFF!~