The last time I post a new entry in this blog is somewhere around august 2013.
I still remember why and when did I decide to completely stop posting any entry here.
It was the time that I have to go through the hardest moment in my life.
Last year, on 17th September 2013, I lost my father. He passed away peacefully in our residential. That night which I would never forget. His going-away is something which all of us would never expect. Even now.
Even now, I still feel he's around. Even now, for me, I feel that he will come back. For me, he is watching us. For me, he is still around.
That night when I lost him, I shut down to the world.
As if my whole world collapsed.
As if my life is over.
As if there's nothing worth smiling for.
I lost the only man on earth who will never break my heart.
I love him for that. I miss him so much.
When I shut down to the world, I feel like I don't want to talk to anyone. And I can't think.
Then, I decide that I should never post.
I should never post because I feel by posting anything, I am exposing my own sadness to the world and that is my weakness point.
I said to myself that whatever it is, I just keep it.
But, I've been blog-walking now and then, and re-visiting some blogs that I usually read during my spare time. Blogs like Maria Elena's, as well as Aimi's Blog (Their blogs are so insightful and always reminding the Sisters in Islam).
Now, I have change my point of view: writing blogs is not going to absolutely expose my weakness point.
It's more on sharing thought. And engraving the memory. Yes, what we felt may not be felt by the whole world (I mean, WHO am I kidding???), but those who were there in the event, will know how it is and the feeling of appreciation would be there. And what more would even be more heart-warming than letting the loved ones, friends and family feels appreciated.
Because I believe that, we don't have to tell the whole world what we felt, what important is, the loved ones feels appreciated knows the things that we want them to know.
Well, it's more on feeling. But we'll get there.
I will not promise that I will constantly post any entry every now and then because I know that this will be part of the things that I do when I have the spare time, when I like to do it, and when I felt inspired.
Just like playing piano, writing is my passion.
P/s: Well, I don't write here like I write in my REAL diary. Yes, I have diary and what I wrote there is even more than here.
