I blame nobody

I really don't mind what am I turning to...

I was a sweet sweet girl

I live the life as if the day is my last

I feel joy I feel fine

I feel carefree I feel wonderful

I feel the love...I feel it all. 

But our universe is funny 

Letting us plan and have it our way

And just like that it all becomes a feeling that we had

Meaning to live the life

End up being full of fury

Not a thing that we could blame

Others just do their thing

Behind that every smile and joy of somebody

One actually suffer

Desperate to find the pure happiness

You and I craving for

I blame nobody even from the very beginning 

Guilty

Aku bukannya baik sangat pun....

Assalamualaikum...
Apa khabar?
Sihat ka?
Sudah makan??

Kalau aku tanya tu...well...at least itu starter aku mau mula conversation la...Selalu aku blur macam mana mau mula conversation...I mean, I may just stand/sit there with my blur face not knowing what to do or what's gonna happen next.
Yep...aku memang minah blur.

Bukan mau judgmental la juga...tapi aku tau tu...ada saja itu ini yang berkata dan bermadah yang si Ija ni macam tiada guna...ya la...gaya selalu blur.
Tapi bagi si Ija...dia peduli apa~
Bukan ignorance la...tapi...when I think about it, is it not within my power to stop other people to do what they want to do or say what they want to say?? I don't think so.
Bukan mau condemn siapa...masing-masing pun manusia...Ada yang tidak senang sama orang yang kita senang...vice versa.

Sebab tu aku cakap aku ni bukannya baik sangat pun. Ya la...aku pun ada aku suka, ada aku tidak suka...tapi...perlu ka semua benda happens the way that I want it to be???
Ada masa aku cool macam biasa saja kalau benda jadi is below my expectation. Ada masa aku boleh meroyan macam perempuan gila bila benda jadi macam tu.
Tapi apa-apa pun, aku minta la dijauhkan dari perangai yang tidak baik.
Sebab aku bukannya baik sangat la aku minta jauh dari perkara macam tu...Sebab aku manusia...sebab orang lain pun manusia...sebab masing-masing ada hati dan perasaan.
I don't want bad things being said about me, so I refuse to say bad things about others. I'm just a listener, and I will never want to tell others the bad that the other told. Biar sampai aku saja.

Semoga yang baik-baik saja....

P/s: Salam Maulidur Rasul. Tadi aku dengar marhaban dari surau kampung. Aku rasa rindu. Tak tau pada siapa....selalu aku rindu bapa aku...tapi tadi terlintas di hati aku, aku rindu Rasulallah.

The Last Time....

The last time I post a new entry in this blog is somewhere around august 2013.

I still remember why and when did I decide to completely stop posting any entry here.

It was the time that I have to go through the hardest moment in my life.

Last year, on 17th September 2013, I lost my father. He passed away peacefully in our residential. That night which I would never forget. His going-away is something which all of us would never expect. Even now.
Even now, I still feel he's around. Even now, for me, I feel that he will come back. For me, he is watching us. For me, he is still around.

That night when I lost him, I shut down to the world.
As if my whole world collapsed.
As if my life is over.
As if there's nothing worth smiling for.
I lost the only man on earth who will never break my heart.
I love him for that. I miss him so much.

When I shut down to the world, I feel like I don't want to talk to anyone. And I can't think.
Then, I decide that I should never post.
I should never post because I feel by posting anything, I am exposing my own sadness to the world and that is my weakness point.
I said to myself that whatever it is, I just keep it.

But, I've been blog-walking now and then, and re-visiting some blogs that I usually read during my spare time. Blogs like Maria Elena's, as well as Aimi's Blog (Their blogs are so insightful and always reminding the Sisters in Islam).

Now, I have change my point of view: writing blogs is not going to absolutely expose my weakness point.
It's more on sharing thought. And engraving the memory. Yes, what we felt may not be felt by the whole world (I mean, WHO am I kidding???), but those who were there in the event, will know how it is and the feeling of appreciation would be there. And what more would even be more heart-warming than letting the loved ones, friends and family feels appreciated.
Because I believe that, we don't have to tell the whole world what we felt, what important is, the loved ones feels appreciated knows the things that we want them to know.
Well, it's more on feeling. But we'll get there.

I will not promise that I will constantly post any entry every now and then because I know that this will be part of the things that I do when I have the spare time, when I like to do it, and when I felt inspired.

Just like playing piano, writing is my passion.

P/s: Well, I don't write here like I write in my REAL diary. Yes, I have diary and what I wrote there is even more than here.

It's been a while...

It's been a while since my last post.
I think it's almost been a year...

F.R.I.E.N.D

Friend,

Who are they?

They are just some part of our lives.

They may come and stay until the very end,

and they may even choose to walk away at this very instance. 

Some say,

they are the missing pieces of our puzzle,

it is impossible to complete the puzzle without them.

Is it really true?

Friend,

I could never understand it,

and I could never get it,

I never felt it,

because friend, 

you never show me. 

*As seen on Tumblr*

Hey!!!

It's my birthday today!!

December, 2nd 2011 (21211)

Birthday post coming soon =)